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Lyrics

Strike me down once again
Cause what am I if not used
I’m just a mannequin
Manipulated and bruised

I’m hypnotized and dazed
You massacre me in every way
Is it karma or is it fate
The realization hits
I don’t think I can live through this
It’s better if I don’t stay

So tell me one more time
Is inflicting pain how you get by
And will the cycle ever end
Or will you kill me once again

I’m hypnotized and dazed
You massacre me in every way
Is it karma or is it fate
The realization hits
I don’t think I can live through this
It’s better if I don’t stay

 

The guitar riff and musical concept for Hostage was written during a rehearsal with my band. I was doing a funky octave slide on guitar, and we started a jam based on that. After playing around with it at a few rehearsals, I asked the band if I could add lyrics and record it professionally. I hadn’t fully fleshed out the song until the day of recording, and wrote the lyrics the night before. There was definitely pressure to get it all done in time to record, but the song came together rapidly and it is one of my favorites on the EP.
 

The lyrics describe feeling like a hostage to the cycle of neglect. The line “Is it karma or is it fate” expresses the feeling that I might have done something to deserve this. The chorus highlights that central thought. I left the lyrics vague enough that the listener can interpret them in many ways. This is my first time co-writing with my band mates, and it was fun to create something together.

Credits: 

Music and Lyrics: Annapurna Knox Tobler

Music: Lennon Heitkam, Adri Hames, Thomas Staples-Marquette

Drums, Guitar, Bass, Vocals: AP Tobler

Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Ryan Perras at District Recording San Jose, CA

Video and Artwork: Type It Down Productions 

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